Friday, September 07, 2007 @9:09 PM
realised more tt i'm a vv weird gal these few days.. been feeling so fan2 bout whether or not to move into pgp for days and my poor bbm kenna all my irritating calls everyday.. frankly.. staying on campus is quite lonely esp when u re in pgp.. everyone locks their doors so u dun get to see or know many pple.. but of cos.. the good part is that u get freedom (tt u cant get at home) as well as there's no tv here.. which is a vv good thing since i can sit down for hours watching any crap tt is shown on scv.. but even on my first day here.. i'm beginning to miss home terribly.. put it correctly.. there's even a choking loss of sense of security staying here.. sad to say.. however strong i try to act in front of everyone, i'm a poor girl who desperately need a tonne of sense of security to accompany me..quite a few times since i checked in.. i was thinking of moving back home immediately.. and i just cant stay walking out of my cluster gate.. the last time when i stayed, it was so different.. i knew tt wadever tt happens, i've got my dear bbm ard.. this time i'm all on my own..den again.. i know i have to grow up.. and where is better and safer to leapt out den nus hostel life.. perhaps i'll grow more independent.. and perhaps even more self-discipline.. considering this is a crucial semester for my step to fyp.. i guess i have to do it..
poco princesa~because i was taught to dream