okay.. it's 4 days since the start of my exams and i'm 5 papers down.. hooray.. finally no more memorizing papers.. the last one is philo.. open book.. haha.. been mugging at such high intensity for the past week tt this whole exam wk i din wanna mug anymore at all.. only read thru my stuff 2-3 hours before each paper.. i'm best man.. i just pray tt i dont have to re-take lsm.. hate this module to the core man.. it's simply memorizing non-stop.. how crap.. cant believe we're still doing this kinda things in uni level..

haha.. first thing i wanna do after the last paper shall be shopping.. haha.. maybe i'll end up shopping these few days too actually.. feels like it's over already..

p.s. installing sims 2 pets..

it's been 4 years.. yet the same cycle repeats itself over and over again.. he simply have got no time for me.. back in jc.. when he had cca.. the reason was he have training.. after tt.. ns came along.. and somehow he got himself stuck in one of the most busy camps.. even though he was not in ocs..den he started his job during his army days.. and started putting all his book out time to working.. my gfs tell me things like "their bf is booking out tonight" so they can go out.. yet it almost never happened to me.. i dont even know when exactly is his night offs..okay.. wait.. now he's out of NS.. and the moment he's out he goes to taiwan and spend most of the few days before going to taiwan meeting clients.. then he came back to spore he started working in the bank.. sigh..

again and again you promised me time to be spent with me.. yet it all never happened.. everytime i fall deeper into your company, getting so used to being with you, you start leaving me alone again.. allowing me to re-practising my independence.. i'm learning.. learning to live on my own.. again and again.. i tried to let you have a bigger share in my life.. and again and again.. it happens for a wk or so.. and your work starts again..

everytime i get so used to your company.. you leave me alone.. and i gotta re-learn my independence again.. i'm afraid.. afraid that i'll never let go of my independence anymore.. afraid of the tough process of practising how to sleep w/o your gd nites and kisses.. afraid of looking at the phone the whole day w/o any sms or calls.. at least, if i remain so independent, 1 less sms does not hurts and no gd nite calls does not leave me looking at the hp thru the nite..

p.s been looking at my hp the whole night.. it din ring.. as usual

and i wanna go kbox too!!!

p.s. just spend 4hr in front of the tv.. wad am i doing??

Mugging hard for exams now.. feeling rather depressed by the pile of notes on my table, so maybe a wishlist will cheer me up..

1) Watch "Step up" and "Garfield 2"
2) Buy adidas jacket
3) Buy Twins new CD "Ho Hoo Tan"
4) Read "Marley and Me"
5) Read finish my borrowed PD James novel "The children of men" before the due date
6) Buy Ipod Nano or new laptop
7) Watch a good arsenal performance.. i.e. stop dropping the wrong points!!

Wenger explains his decision to leave henry on the bench yesterday with extreme sarcism..
"We have a special relationship with the French national team and they help us a lot," Wenger added with his tongue firmly in cheek. "I would like to thank them officially."

Good job Wenger..

worked in ucc yesterday.. yesh.. president bush came to ucc yesterday.. reported at 3pm.. went thru lotsa security checks before even being allowed into ucc.. frankly speaking.. we din had much to do.. there were simply so many armed forces, us military troops, plain-clothes.. and even snipers ard and in ucc.. i was deployed as vip reception usher.. so basically stood there for 2 hrs looking at ministers eat and chat.. actually it was rather funny cos the suite 1 was freezing cold and even mr teo XX couldn stand the air-con.. he came to us to ask us to adjust the temp.. den after that all his men kept asking if we already did smth bout the air-con, super pressurising man.. everyone kept staring at us.. luckily theresia was there to handle the situation.. sm goh came with his wife.. den dr tony tan came also.. the whole suite 1 was basically filled with ministers..

i din had much to do there.. so i was just looking ard when i saw the engine "hill" opposite ucc was filled with sightsee-ers.. so many pple stood on the "hill" hoping to catch a glimpse of the us president.. some even had binoculars.. and all equipped with cameras.. haha.. how lucky i was to be standing in the venue.. with air-con.. it was drizzling a bit yesterday so those pple were braving rain and the hot and humid air trying to see bush.. anyway, they nv got to see him at all.. he din came by the front entrance.. so their waiting ended up with nothing..

and i was really surprised that they invited the ushers to sit in the house to listen to his speech.. not that his speech was that interesting but it was such a shocking thing that we could sit in.. i had never been to any event that we can seat in the house during the event!! and the whole house was well-armed.. i mean.. you really can see how much effort they spent to make sure he's safe.. btw, QQ even brought a camera to take pics in the house.. lol..

after all the hype yesterday i almost forgot that i had bahasa oral today..was asking plin to convert me into 'exam' mode on the way home yesterday.. of cos it was rather useless.. so went for indo oral today without much studying.. phew.. luckily i din screwed up big time.. i was stunned when i saw my topic "akhir minggu saya"(i.e my weekend).. well, converted it to my fav topic "belanja"(i.e shpping) out of my stunness.. come to think about it.. could have said alot more things.. i tink no matter was topic u get u will get a big shock.. plin got the easiest topic anyone can think of "saya"(i.e me).. and she was so shocked that she din know wad to say.. sandra even had her best topic "makanan favorit"(i.e fav food).. and she was equally stunned..

p.s. finally did a little better for more philo paper.. althought for all the effort that i spent, the marks was still disgustingly low.. i'm seriously retarded in writing philo papers..

just read the news bout chilam becoming a father.. so happy for him.. he was one of my childhood idol and i always tot that he and his wife re one of the best matched pairs in hk showbizz.. second to tony leung and liu jialing of cos.. also, hacken lee is finally into preparation mode for his wedding.. it makes me happy seeing all these couples who had been together for 10 over years stepping into a new phase of life.. at least it shows that love can still be ever lasting.. i know that it seems boring to be facing one person for life.. but somehow i seems to start liking the stability and serenity that long-lasting relationships bring about.. at least u always know that there will be a shoulder for you to cry on or someone to pick you up when you fall.. instead of having to search for one every now and then.. the search, although it may be a sweet process, is tiring.. i guess i must be getting old.. somehow a really very happening life no longer appeals to me so much.. or mayb i'm getting lazier.. i dont know..

anyway, watched the arsenal vs liverpool match.. loved the game cos arsenal was playing really really as a team.. although i tink henry still deserves a goal for all the effort he puts in the game.. appearing basically on every part of the pitch..

p.s last night @ work in the clinic before a one month exam break..

just came across a really really funny article of kolo toure online, was laughing non-stop when i read it.. *a must read*

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/sport/main.jhtml?xml=/sport/2006/11/11/sfnsmi11.xml

P.S. praying for arsenal's victory over pool tml.. emirates rulez..

finally.. lessons re almost over.. my first lesson shall be dos form and indo on tues.. den it's all over.. yeah.. time really pass way too quickly this sem.. scary.. within no time, i'll be working already.. sigh..

anyway, today is my last working sat before my exams.. not too bad.. this 2 months i onli work for bout 5 hrs each sat but i'm paid for 7 hrs.. doc gotta go for course.. so i can free money.. woohoo.. anyway, it was raining heavily when we left the clinic today.. and poor dr chin gotta dash to his car w/o umbrella and drive his car to the clinic door to fetch me.. hehe.. i was totally drenched by dashing the 1m to the car door.. imagine to have to dash 20m to get to his car.. haha.. luckily i dont have to do that..

was supposed to meet cal after work today.. but i was simply too sick so i went home to slp instead.. dad brought a vv potent virus back home and infected the whole family.. sigh..

p.s. gotta work quite a lot next week.. both ucc and clinic.. oh well, i need $$$.. wanna go apps nepal next july..

Had alot of things happening today.. firstly, i finally handed in my philo paper with all the blog post and finshed my last philo tut.. wad a relief.. finally i can dump philo aside until all the rest of the papers are finised..

Did not study for dosage form test last night.. really had no mood for work the whole weekend.. so wasted all my time sleeping and watching all sorta rubbish shows.. including the arsenal match on Sunday.. wad a waste of time.. so i'm really glad that i din die too badly for the test even though i onli studied on my way to sch this morn..

i was supposed to be studying at 11am today.. my onli 1 hr break in the whole day.. but ended up meeting kit for lunch.. so hard to arrange to meet with her lor.. cannot miss the chance to.. lol..

anyway, a strange episode happened today.. i was copying mon's lsm notes in the ps room while mon was binding.. then jw, grace and co came in and asked where we bought the binding coms everything and stuff.. so i answered them.. and i tot they misunderstood that the binding machine belongs to welfare so they wanted to use.. so i gladly said that it was our personal one.. then i just continued copying notes..

later, when plin and mon mentioned.. then i realised what i had just did.. they wanted borrow the machine!! Dumb dumb me.. i mean.. frankly.. i would have said yes.. and it's not as if they re binding alot alot of stuff.. of cos it's okay.. esp cos they re my quite close frens afterall.. so why not?? haiya, must find a time to apologise to them for my rudeness..

btw, just had a chat on the phone with cal.. yeah.. we can go eat sushi this wed.. so happy.. nus food sux..

yeah.. dr found someone else to work le.. and jiayi is helping me with tuesday.. i can conc and study already..

i cant believe how kind fate had been to me for the past 22 yrs of my life.. everything seems to come to a beautiful ending no matter wad i do. i'm not saying tt there had been no challenges in my life, there had been many encounters tt did shatter me but lady luck shone on me and brought me countless guardian angels to guild me to shore. thank you angels. you have all made my life worthwhile.

Before I grew up I saw you on a cloud I could bless myself in your name and patch you on my wings "Life is hard and so is love, child, believe in all these things"

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